As your birthday approaches in three days I cant help but think about all the birthdays I missed. I wont be able to call you and say Happy Birthday but I send you birthday wishes up to Heaven where you never age. Alisa, not a day goes by that I don't think about you. My heart hurts that we lost touch. I wasn't there or near when you were hurting. I could not give you an encouraging word, tell you I loved you and give you hugs and kisses. My spirit grieves for the time gone by and knowing that a few decades back we connected and formed a friendship. I hurt because I thought about you and tried to find you on more than a few occasions not knowing that you had went home to be with Jesus. For the short time that we remained in touch you were a light in my life. I keep your picture on my coffee table so I can see your pretty face everyday. Sometimes my mind goes back and I get sad for what wasn't but I am grateful for what was. You have three beautiful daughters and two pretty, precious granddaughters. You were so loved. I read the things people say about you to no surprise. I am grateful for the 39 years God allowed you to live and experience joy. I am so sorry for the pain but you are pain free now living happily in a place that we have not reached yet. I still hear your laugh. I can still hear your voice and thank God I can see you through the pictures your mom shares with me and the ones I find on the pages of others who loved you. It allows me to take a glimpse into the life I missed apart from you but so happy to see that you were happy. I feel like I lost a sister. You were/are my sister in spirit. I know its hard on your mom with you not being here so I try to stay close to her in anyway I can. I know that would make you smile and be happy. I have been watching the clock and counting the days til your birthday so I can tribute you. I love you Alisa. I miss you and I hope God lets you see these words I am typing so you will know how I feel about you. I am so glad that your daughters talk to me sometimes. It makes me feel so good Lee Lee. I know they are grown with lives of their own and don't really know me. The one thing I hope they will come to know is that I love(d) you and you were my dear friend that I missed terribly. I have a love for your family, like you mom said we are family and that made me feel so good when she said that because it is how I feel too. Let me say Happy Birthday to you precious 72 hours in advance. I hold you in my heart tightly and will never let the memory of you go, some might not understand but then its not for them to understand because it's a personal feeling in me for you and its not going anywhere. I love you precious and see you when I get to Heaven. Love your sister, Sherri. XOXOXOXOXOXO